How could you want me?
I’ve misused your trust so often
It would only seem logical for you to go for someone less complex
I always thought I had to perform for people to stay
I hate that I’ve gotten used to how they walk away
The sound of their exit’s slam shut me into shudder like gunfire
Even those who promised to hold on
Eventually couldn’t wait to move on
Yet your feet have never left any dust at my door
Out of everyone who leaves, you still want more
Kind of surprised you chose me with no doubt
Even when I was the one fighting to walk you out
You were never a big fan of putting on a show
Talking to you, I had the freedom to flow
Why follow a script to play a role that I don’t need?
When you’re the director, I can trust your lead
While they kept searching for the perfect fit
In my mess you told me that I was it
I quit my job as an actress and cut the pretence
Stopped using excuses as my line of defence
The masks I wore, you tore with one look
Even with my walls, I was still an open book
I didn’t think you had a thing for plain
Neither did I expect you to remember my name
While I was concerned about comments and likes,
Entertaining strangers as each moment strikes
You loved me in the details I refused to post
While they were just visitors, you remained my host
When my accuser opened a case against my past
And turned my dirty little secrets into a broadcast
You spilled your blood all over his evidence
It was your fingerprint he found and your son who took the sentence
Cause when the Judge is in the court
We all rise to watch how the devil gets served!
What matter of love stays after witnessing the worst?
Or leaves the 99 for the 1 who quit first?
It’s the one I received when I made you my Lord
The one every budget combined could never afford
His unconditional, is an unfinished war
Yes, I’m the one Christ won and continues to fight for
Even when it seems like I’m all alone
He makes a home out of my heart of stone
It pleases to me to finally laugh at fear
And tell her ‘You’ve lost, My King is still here’